Halley Amor- Who am I?
I'm so excited to get this blog up and going. I'm so nervous as well. Nervous because this is a place of learning and growth, for me as well as all of you. I will be open and vulnerable with you all in hopes to help that growth take place. I plan to do mostly post podcasts, though you may find other posts here and there as well, like this one. If this reaches the audience I hope it will, there will be listeners/readers who don't know me personally. So for them I will give a brief intro to who I am, not my bio but who I am and why I am doing this blog.
I am full of passion, I love life and I love love love talking. It may be my favorite thing. I am a crier as well. See I love to talk but it just so happens I cry if I feel sad, nervous, angry, overwhelmed. It's really my body's go to reaction. So I talk best to small groups of people, or one or two people at time. I also suffer from depression and have for years. I have learned that I grow and can help others as I talk about my experiences and so I do that. I talk with those close to me, friends and family about all kinds of stuff. I grow, they grow and it's great. But it's not enough for me. I want to share my story, my experiences, my life with a larger audience. So at first knowing myself I didn't let myself have that dream because I know how I get in front of large groups of people. But then I was talking to one of my sisters and I told her my dream and that I needed practice. But how do you get practice talking to large groups of people? She said to do a podcasts, so here I am.
I hope to talk about all things important to living the life you want, to help you design your life, your way. I would love comments and feed back, topic ideas and any input you have. When you do leave input please remember, in the end only kindness matters.
Thank you for your "not everyone connects the same way" thread. From my experience, I'll say that it appears very different for me. Perhaps I am an extreme introvert, I honestly don't know. But I did suffer from depression for at least 10 years before a doc was willing (able?) to see it or to trust my self-diagnosis enough to try a med, which had such a rapid and dramatic effect that it blew his mind and showed him just how bad it had been, how much he was *not* seeing. I was able to transition to herbal remedies and have not needed any for years. The one thing that used to be able to pull me out was music...very specific cuts from some of the Mannheim Steamroller "Fresh Air" series. What has helped me to stay out of the pit, I think, may actually be having *fewer* people around, though. And while, after listening to your podcast, I am aware that there *are* a few more here than in the other places I have lived with whom I have actually connected, that is a much more recent development than my living in a less populated area and having less contact with strangers and those with whom I have a passing acquaintance. If I ask myself "when am I the most "me?"" the answer that comes is: when I am alone and following one of my passions. In truth, even being in the garden with one of those people with whom I have a real connection... or sitting at my wheel and spinning alongside a similar friend who shares that passion...gives me as much stress as it does joy. I *can* do it more, and feel the joy more, now, than when I spent my days "out amongst the English" -- or as I often feel -- "surrounded by NPCs.
ReplyDeleteI did enjoy your talk, and it made me think. I am sure it will resonate more with true extroverts, but I appreciate your awareness that we can be quite different!
I’d venture to say when you are out in garden tu connect to Mother Nature? I know you connect to animals, especially dogs. And is even count connecting with you ancestors when you work on hex. Connection is very different for everyone though. Thanks for listening and for the comment.
DeleteYou are right, and Mother Nature (Gaea) is very real to me, as is Frigga. And, I guess animals DO count! I have joked (and it is rather true) that I am more likely to remember the names of the dogs or cats than their humans, if we meet in passing! I know I am not the only one like that, for sure. Recently two of the students in the sheep club at the local university recognized and remembered me as "the woman who has Rigby," one of the lambs from the school flock from last year's breeding! They were somewhat embarrassed as they said that, but honestly I did not recall them at all and told them that I did not know them without "their" sheep! (the students care for specific ewes during their time in the club.) I am looking forward to your next podcast, Halley!
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